Lately I've been doing lots of painting & along with that, lots of thinking. They go hand in hand. As I push paint around, trying to make some sense of it, there's lots of time to sort the accumulation of jumbled fleeting thoughts & to try and make sense of them.
This past week, in snippets here & there, I've been working on a whole blog piece about 'finding my voice'. My blogging voice. I haven't completely unravelled or unscrambled it yet. But I hope I do so I can share it.
I don't think its necessarily something I want to always do, sharing the inner thoughts & thought processes about why I blog & what it is I'm still doing here writing all this stuff years & years down the track. But I think I have something I want to say. The wind is blowing, the direction is shifting, a tiny bit. The focus is becoming clear. Soon.
Tonight I've been watching The Voice Australia re-runs on TV amongst other potterings & in the ads listening to an angel singing on YouTube. It got me thinking more about my voice & the post I am writing. All these connections...
Anyway, once upon a time something you wouldn't know about me is that I secretly used to daydream about being a singer. Silly huh? I think I've only ever muttered that pipe dream to one other person on the planet.
Yeah, a singer. All the colour, self expression, creativity & peace it brings. Poor self esteem, lack of confidence & not a very good voice however, meant that I wouldn't ever make anything of it. Regardless, I used to spend hours as a teenager in the 80's with my ghettoblaster & cassette tapes, listening, singing, pausing, scribbling down lyrics, singing them back over & over until they were ingrained.
I still do sing alot & now my kids sing alot too. And I still today, play beautiful songs over & over & Google lyrics so I can burn them on my brain. I sit and sing alone, and with my kids and with my sister. Its pure joy. Creative joy. I would love to write my own songs & play music & sing. Maybe one day. I think I will have some free time when I'm in my 60's. Not too late right?
I'll leave you with the voice of an Angel & the lyrics so you can sing along too. Be sure to check out her Youtube channel here. You will be blown away. xo
Do you have a secret little pipe dream? Are you enjoying The Voice?
A Thousand Years...